I've been feeling brighter and not depressed. How do you know? My mind starts to work clearer. I start to be more aware of time. I am able to do things more efficiently. I have a better concept of what I can do in an hour. It's not like my life begins to be all about producing... when that happens, I spiral into depression.
There is a delicate balance; a system at work. I am more aware that time is on side of the spectrum, while producing is totally on the other side.
But now I realize that time has more of a meaning. I realize that there are things I want to do in a day. There are ways I experience joy in my days and I make plans to experience that joy. I don't apologize for it. I prepare for it and I enjoy my life.
That's what not depressed feels like.
It feels like you enjoy your life and you are able to take things in stride. You understand that your emotions are not you. That you are the listener, not the speaker. That you are in control of a life that you signed up for. I feel like if this magical being, who is pure love, signed me up for this life that there must have been a reason.
Yes, there is excruciating pain in this realm, but there are also a rainbow of other emotions to experience! The Celelstinee Prophesy takes us through a set of steps to understand the NDE.
It is a place and a consciousness that I recognize because I have felt that experience - either in dreams or in very special situations.
It is something I reflect on. It gives me some bigger picture. I feel like that I am learning the lessons I have to learn. These are all opportunities.
Love,
mom
There is a delicate balance; a system at work. I am more aware that time is on side of the spectrum, while producing is totally on the other side.
But now I realize that time has more of a meaning. I realize that there are things I want to do in a day. There are ways I experience joy in my days and I make plans to experience that joy. I don't apologize for it. I prepare for it and I enjoy my life.
That's what not depressed feels like.
It feels like you enjoy your life and you are able to take things in stride. You understand that your emotions are not you. That you are the listener, not the speaker. That you are in control of a life that you signed up for. I feel like if this magical being, who is pure love, signed me up for this life that there must have been a reason.
Yes, there is excruciating pain in this realm, but there are also a rainbow of other emotions to experience! The Celelstinee Prophesy takes us through a set of steps to understand the NDE.
It is a place and a consciousness that I recognize because I have felt that experience - either in dreams or in very special situations.
It is something I reflect on. It gives me some bigger picture. I feel like that I am learning the lessons I have to learn. These are all opportunities.
Love,
mom
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